You call this love?

I've made up so many excuses for you and I've tried to pretend that you were just going through a rough time and maybe that's why you treated me like that. 

I thought that if I put up with you that it would all go away because in the end love conquers all. 

But there was a line and you crossed that  10 miles ago. 

I hate to think about every second I would waste crying in the mirror wishing I was pretty enough and thin enough for you to love me

And you know what I never will be.

I'm not that girl that you're going to marry and I'll spend everyday cooking and cleaning for you. 

I'm not going to wear the clothes that you think I'd look best in and I'm not sorry that my stomach isn't flat and my makeup isn't done right. 

I'm done wasting my affection on someone who is in love with the idea of who I could be.